May 24th, 2003

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What I wouldn't give...

For a pair of working headphones. Honestly.

I spent the afternoon with Delphine and her sister and her sister's boyfriend. It seems that everytime I'm with them, they go shopping. It occurs to me that there are a lot of people who actually enjoy shopping. This is very strange and foreign to me, even though I now see that I have been a social shopper by default for over a year. How bizarre is that?

Delphine lent me a novel by Ethan Hawke. I'm not sure how that'll be, but it gives me something to get into after I finish rereading Pride and Prejudice. She also lent me the second and third Tales of the City books by Armistead Maupin. I wonder if reading them in French will make them seem better that the first one. Somehow, I doubt it. But they're certain to be easy to read, if nothing else.

My birthday is Wednesday. I'll be 25. It seems like that means I must actually be a grownup now. I don't think I like that. I don't feel especially grown up. What with the not having a "real job" and my affinity for children's books and such. There was a woman in the oral exams this week who looked like she was a real live grownup. Someone who bought only quality matching clothes, and wore matching gold jewelry, and had a grownup hair cut. She had a pinched face, like she had no time to smile because she was too busy taking care of important things. I thought she must be between 35 and 38, and that maybe she was worried because she was still single. She seemed like she was definitely single, and like the type who would worry about it. I thought, "I don't want to be her in ten years. Please say this will not be me." And then the conversation part of the exam began, and she announced that she was 25. I think that was scarier than anything else. Will I turn into her before the week is out?
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